The hardest thing for us humans is to let go

Because it leaves us facing ourselves

Without any place to hide

And the pain, the depth of pain there 

Is unbearable

It’s unbearable until we let go

And we don’t want to

We don’t want to see

We want to remain blind

We believe it will save us

But the only thing it is offering us is the loss of ourselves

We don’t trust it

We don’t trust in life 

We don’t trust that we will receive what we need

That life wants the best for us

For how can we? In the face of all this pain

Our bodies are screaming

Our lungs are crushed  

Our hands shaking and hearts ripped up open

The pain is not a sign of that life has abandoned us

At least that’s what i chose to believe

Here on my knees, praying for guidance

Praying to be saved

Life is not saving us by taking away our pain,

It is only in the mind of a child

We are newborn in pain

We are growing in pain

Our hearts open in pain

Life is moving through us and we can finally be free

When we meet ourselves fully

Not sooner or later

When we face ourselves

When we let go of that which kept us away from pain

When we let go of that which kept us safe and warm

When we let go and surrender to something we don’t know

Something we have no idea where it will take us

Something greater, that is moving us

They don’t tell us about this when we enter into meditation

They don’t tell us that we will have to give up and let go 

of things we love

People we love

That we will have to let go of everything we treasure 

until nothing but the truth remains

That only then we are free,

Free to be,

Free to be ourselves 

No attachments

No wants

That we will become a traveler of the wind

An organ for the universe to experience the world

Nothing stays

Even our bodies we will have to say goodbye to one day

Everything we love we will need to leave

Let go of

It doesn’t mean we can not still love

We let go not out of fear but out of love

We let go so that love can take place

So that love can live freely in us

We hold on out of fear, 

out of the blindness and greediness to be saved from our pain

We need to let go of ourselves to become ourselves

And I pray, I pray that there will be love

That love will be what will be left 

When everything else is gone.